I don't-
Will he still-

I hope this doesn't last very long. If I went back like this and he never came to me again...

I glanced in the mirror this morning and thought Phrixus was here. It's very weird. I don't know quite...I mean I know how it all works but it's on me.

That was...not as bad as I expected. Not really. I still find it hard to see the point of marriage. Shouldn't just loving someone be enough? The ceremony is...ceremony.

My boss at work wasn't happy about me missing so much time...he said-he said that if I do it again I need a doctor's note. Or a new job. I don't want to leave the aquarium...